Firm Milk Delight

Boop Boop Boopppp.
I was sick today. :o
I sleep for like, 14 hours. That's the best thing about being sick. You can sleep all you want and not get in trouble. I slept thru all my alarms, and probably my parents attempts to wake me. I'm pretty sure I did turn off some alarms and I did tell my dad I'm not going to school when he asked me. Eh.


Mhm. I don't know what's been new with you guys, but what's been new with me is the exact opposite of what I've been wanting. Ever feel that way? :/ 


First of all, I have not been motivated to do my homework, at all. I had an essay due today, I haven't even written it yet. I have two other projects due, and haven't started. I'm like three days behind in history notes. I have no clue what's up with physics. The group had to build the catapult today, but I doubt all the things got done. Somebody might have forgotten something. I don't really give a shit anymore. I used to be a good student. What happened to it?


Second, I just haven't been to excited with life. Yeah, it's great at times. I have fun. But you know that feeling you feel when you are alone, and you feel empty, and neither you are anybody else cares? I got that going for me right now.


Third, I'm pretty sure nobody'll love me. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know you love me. But at the end of day, nobody calls me theirs. Nobody to call mine. 


Fourth, I blame the weather. I hate when it rains and is cold. 


Fifth, I feel alone most of the time. In a lot of my classes, I'm mute. I just don't feel like talking. I don't like some of the people I'm with. Nobody knows me. And people always ask 'what's wrong?' Nothing is wrong. Maybe, I don't like talking to you. Maybe there is nothing wrong. Maybe, just, maybe I'm happy with my discontent in life, and enjoy suppressing feelings that probably shouldn't be. Maybe there isn't anything wrong, and I don't want to talk to you. People will try to talk to me, but I'm not to interested in it. But I want to talk to people. 
I've decided what is wrong with me. I just want to talk to you, and nobody else will do. I'm probably feeling like shit because I can't talk to you anymore. I got too connected to somebody I shouldn't have, and now I'm paying for it. 


But at least my Jasper still loves me for me. <3
That's the thing about pets. They love you no matter what you are going thru. They don't care what you look like or what your future is. They just love you. And that's why I like pets better then people. They don't judge. 


This is one emotion post. I do those sometimes. But I like to have some fun.


Reasons Why I hate At&t:
1)Crap phones, crap service, and CRAPPY customer service. 
2) The television system fails regularly. 
3) And when the U-verse fails, so does the interwebs and phone.
4) Screwed me over on a upgrade on my phone. 
5) For the crap they give us, they still want us to pay an arm and a leg, and expect us to be happy with it. 


I was very prepared to end this blog with that list, but I'm installing a newer version of my anti-virus and I need something to do so I want go insane. 


I need NyQuil. Bad. 
Preferably the dry cough kind
But all I got is the kind you shouldn't take more of. 
And the kind that puts you to sleep in 1/2 hour.


I thought of the stuff I need to do this weekend, and I just wanted to die. I'm in no hurry to do anything. I'd like to get my life moving, and just move past this part. Nothing is happening. I'm just wasting air, and time and people's time.






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Emo paragraphs needa stop, fosho. 






OHMYGAWD.  I thought all this, all that I wrote, would be gone. My anti-virus, while installing, decided I couldn't be one the interwebs, and then made me restart. I probably would have cried if it didn't save. 

I think I have cluster headaches. That, or my brain hates me. 
Taking a risk tonight. Hope it works out. 
Later peeps.




Oh, and feel free to comment. I love comments. :)

Lacking Everything Interesting.... Maybe....

Hi. :3 I missed you. I was thinking of you, and how I missed you so. And now look at me. :D

Currently. I'm wearing one shoe. It is an amazing shoe. All you peeps would be jealous of this jealous causing kicks. I LOVE THEM. And for $4.99, they were a steal. And German. And leather. Jealous yet?

I'm also wearing an awesome shirt. Slip into something more comfortable. ;) It's slightly suggestive, how I like everything. 

I know I'm wearing these shoes for like everything from now on. I love them so much. But enough about the shoes. I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR WITH THEM! Except this shirt, but it's huge and smells like musty man. /:

So, I'm supposed to be writing this essay, but I say it's stupid. Why must I do a riddle, essay and a project in one class? ALL AT ONCE. It's some bullshit. And the project isn't any copy or paste kinda thing. You actually have to do something with it. I want to do the soundtrack, like I have that kinda of technology. UGH.

I hate school.

I've decided not to finish my history notes. Eh. I've done half of them. 14 pages is alot. And they are about a war, so that's even more difficult for note taking. I'm also in the mood of not caring what a read, so that isn't a great mind set to be in when doing such a task. I feel like writing. I should apply that to my essay. I don't even know what.topic I should do. 

I like space. my brain hurts. I went on a field trip today. Went to the Coast Guard place in Calumet. It was tits. And the guy who gave us a tour was kinda cute. :o

I'm jamming to some Man of War. I'm not going to do my essay tonight either. I'll say I lost that shit, or left it at home. And work on it tomorrow. My brain is all sorts of not here. Why is there so much homework to do this week. I'd list it, but if I don't care about it, why would you? 

Soosoosososoososososoosoososoossooo. I'm still wearing one awesome shoe. I should change and go to sleep. I'm not doing anything too productive at the moment. :/

I needa get a new book report book. Stupid library wanting it back. WHY WOULD SOMEBODY REQUEST THE BOOK I NEED SO DESPERATLEY!!!!!!!

 I'm pretty pissed.

1) I already did one log on it

2) The second one is due next Wednesday

3) I already finished the fucker. 

I'm tired. 

I should publish before I fall asleep on the keyboard. I've done it before. I've fallen asleep doing a lot of things. But I don't think eat is one of them. 

GOODLATERS MY READERS. (: <3

Mustache Ninja Party?

So, this is a fun color. :3


Anyway, I saw my page views today, and holy shizz. I had nine. Considering the average being zero, that's a improvement. Either, I have a stalker, somebody cares, or I have a new fan. I wouldn't mind all of the above. 
But you know what that means? I might have to start doing more interesting things. IE more awesome music and awesome pictures.


I'm having a terrible time spelling today. But I don't care. Interwebs have spellcheck, oh yes.


I went driving all over yesterday. Total of 2 hours and 45 mins. Drove almost to 80 in Naperville, then turned around and then drove to Marseilles, which had Alpaca Days. OHMYGAWD. I want a baby alpaca. They are soo super soft. Okay, imagine the softest thing you have ever felt in your whole freakin' life and then multiple that softness by a billion, and you will get how soft he was. And then my mumma drove to Ottawa for this Emu store, which was closed. It was also River Fest or something of the sort. We walked around there for a bit. I drove home from there. My grandma told me to go straight to hill. D: (A bit of an inside joke, but it was too hilarious to not put in here) After I got home, I watched my recording of the premier of Ghost Adventures. I fell asleep. The show makes me tired, actually, all ghost shows make me tired, even tho it doesn't bore me. After I had awoken, my pa, ma, and I went to Plano for Oktoberfest. I drove again. Woot! Anyway, I had the pulled port. OH jebuz, was that amazing! The music was good too. And that was my Saturday. :D


That was an intense paragraph. If I forget to go back and edit the mistakes, forgive me. I'm only human. 


So today, was my getting shit done day. I did my history notes. Whhooooo! I hate reading of the Revolutionary War. Does that make me a bad American? 


I had a huge scare also today. I thought I lost my ribbons, stars, name tag, rank, and J-bar for ROTC. I thought I was going to die. FORREALS I would've been yelled at by my instructor. :/ But I found it. It was under my bed with my wrist brace an buttons. Because that makes sense...


I still need to do my laundry. I should get that going before anybody else decides to do stuff. It's like, whenever I need to use the wash, people need it too. But all that time when it wasn't in use, they didn't need it. 


ohmygawd. I just cracked my wrist that's in pain, and now it's in more pain. I had to take it off because it causes problems with typing and it was getting sweaty. Ewwww


Boop Boop Boop. Did I mention my interview for Big Brothers Big Sisters? Well, I got interviewed and I wanna get in, so bad. I'll know by the end of October. Which is when I can get my drivers licence. Which is days before my birthday. 


Oh, like I mentioned before. Inside Jokes. I don't like mentioning them in this blog because there will be people who'll not know what the heck is going on, and I don't want them to be put in that situation. I'm a good person, really. (:

Oh, that's meeee. Have a nice day. :D

This Is A Title, Mhm.

Whoop! I'm back! With news?


Maybe, not really, sorry to get you excited.
'I was like a tampon theif because I had to pull some stringsss' -Bo Burnham 
Yeah, that is an awesome lyrics. I tend to quote him alot. It's an great habit to have.


COLON TIME: It's time for colons. That seems a bit redundant, doesn't it?


Fancy: I'm wearing my fancy shoes for no reason. and a sweatshirt that is my sisters and some short shorts. I'm officially a weather confused whore. Hahaha


I'm in a good mood today. I don't know why, but I'm smiling, like as we speak. I shouldn't be tho. I'm missing my best biffle at the moment. For some reason they don't have their telephone. ): And yeah, I'm corny, but it just seems like my day isn't complete without talking the him. (It hasn't even been a week. Hahhaha)


Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. How I missed my metal music. <3 Slayer makes me feel good. ((((:


Good News: I don't think I failed my 4 1/2 week assessment for phsyics. It helped that the teacher did give us like, 10 of the answers the day before. What a life saver. I probably passed that shizz with a D. I know I beasted my math and english one. 


My wrist has been hurting recently. And I can't find my brace. I feel like crying sometimes because it hurts that much. ): And I won't be excused from PT without it. I don't want to even try to do a push-up. Those are sent from hell if you can't even put pressure on a wrist. Maybe I'll luck out and have Fun and Games tomorrow. We had it last Friday, so I don't think it'll happen. Have to get ready for that fitness test. Ugh I do not want to even walk a mile. They wait until it gets so cold outside to do it. And it will be impastable to do it inside. I'm ranting, blah blah blahhh.


Haha, that reminds me. Have you ever heard the saying 'And then Steve stabbed some guy.' when somebody is telling a story and nobody is listening? Well, I said that around my Dad and it turns out he knows a guy named Steve and he actually stabbed some guy. I thought it was hilarious. 


So, its Thursday. 
And I think this dude I sit with at lunch likes me. I like him as a friend, only. But it's creepy how he always wants to hold me hand. :/ Am I just being weird, or is that legit to think. And I don't want to be mean or anything, but I have to put a stop to it. Because I am abusing other people to let out those feelings. Oye. How misplaced anger has always come back to bite me in the arse. >:l


Yeap, so the other day I was a camera whore, and I think it's time to upload. I might add some to the collection before I do so. 


AHHHiefbhgilhsfkjghsjlfk It feels like there is something in my ear and I can't get it out. I'd use a Q-tip, but I don't want to rupture my eardrum. Add another thing to my list of frivolous fears. 


I think this is where I stop talking. You are probably getting bored and stuff. 
I heart you! <3

I Do My Homework Not People

I'm feeling this kinda font. It makes me feel at home. (:


So, lemmeh explain this amazing title. I got it from somebody, so no credit for me. But, it's too true. I've been doing my homework like a mofo. 


Anyway, It's been like 8 days. I think I haven't done much with this is because pf the fact, I've done nothing...


Except Friday, that was pretty tits. 
But lets start with last Sunday.


Sunday: Damie came home. I did laundry. I probably did homework. 


Monday: I freaked out about doing a performance in English. It went terrible, but I got a 24/30. I better still have my A, or I'm funna be pissed.


Tuesday: Twas okay. I think I found out I had an A in Physics and A in Psychology. I took me four weeks to learn how to spell those right. 


Wednesday: I got to see Manuel Scott speak. OhMyJebuz. It was pretty inspirational. And for those who don't know him, he was the one dude in Freedom Writers. 


Thursday: I took a pre-quiz in ROTC, and I failed that shit. 56%, oh yeah. But whateva, I hate timed tests. Give you 12 seconds to read, comprhend a question and then use a remote(that most of the time didn't work) to answer such a thing. 


FRIDAY!!: I had taken a APUSH test the day before, and I had gotten the score. The class average was 55%. I got a freakin' 70%. Talk about a wenier. ;)


Navy Night: This was also Friday, but it's a long story and it would be weird to do paragraph thing. So, anyways, I had to power walk to the damn school. I was late getting outta the house. Got there in like 12 mins. That's what you call boss. I got separated from my class because of my lack of uniform. I had to stand by a bunch of high freshman talking about the various types of weed and getting bitches pregnant. This group was the last to leave the field house, and we had to stop for a car and then RUN to get caught up. Now, running in non-running boots is a pain. and with a bag, quite a bitch. Then, we stood there for awhile. I get freshman are new to this whole rules thing, but what the fuck. They couldn't stand in a line to save their life. Later, we had to run on to the football field. The football team ran thru two lines of us. Then we had to run off the field and run behind the bleachers. I swear we worked more than the actual football team. By the time we got to our seats, it was already 0-21. We had to wait forever to get outta there. The score was 0-49 when I left. A group of friends and I left that terrible match and got chetto packed. It wasn't that made except the part about listening to Metallica. We ended up at Steak n' Shake at 11-ish. We ended up walking to Denny's. I found plastic in my waffle and got free ice cream. I had to pay for my Pineapple Dream. Our waiter, Scott, told me it was a drug. After we got done eating, we found out we were kinda stranded there at like, 12:30 in the morning. I ended up getting home at 1:30. 


Saturday: I watched George of the Jungle. Man, that George is sexy as fuckkkk. Maybe it was those muscles, or maybe it was those muscles. *drools* 
lmfaoooooooo


Today: I ate and went to Devin's house. 


Extreme Update: I like to use colons, and I like my colon. (;


Goals for Today: Make a ringtone or two, and add some new music to the ol' Mp3 players, because I'm that old school. 


I probably have wasted most of my time on Memebase or Failblog.
But alas, it's a lazy Sunday. 

If you can make a pick up line out of that, I will love you forever. <3






Well, I guess this means good bye. I have to get some shit done while I still can. ;)

Well Then

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I'm back mofos.
I can't seem to leave you guys without a view into my wonderful life.
I'm pretty sure I know everybody who reads this. I love you for it. Promiseeee


I have no idea when it was that I blogged last. NO IDEAAAAA
I had to know, so I did a bit of research, and it was freakin' Monday.
Shit has happened, lemmeh tell ya.


Okay, I was kinda kidding. Nothing really happened. Well, nothing too exciting
I shall explain after I put on some tunes.
I have this Party Rock song stuck in my head. Stupid commercials. It's what I get for watching Conan.
But really, Conan is my role model. I should tell him that. #realtalk
It's also not Twitter, and I'm a foul for intermingling the two. I also spelled intermingling right on the first try. Now that is winning.


So, I've decided I'm such a girl. Thinking of lurv all the damn thing. :\ What the heck is wrong with me!? Somebody should fill me in. Thanks.


I've also decided I kinda love Forever the Sickest Kids. It's some good love songs. A fun mix of rock and feeling good. Yeap. I'm listening to them RIGHT NOW. Same Damn Excuse if you were wondering.


Mhm. So, like, MY MOM LEFT THURSDAY. D:
It's all good. She'll come back some day. ):
But really, she will. Just a trip with my Grandma.
Le Sigh. I wanted to go sooo bad, but alas, I have to go to school. Can't miss more than ten days of school in the beginning even though you don't learn anything anyway. Pshh
Gasp. I just learned Buffalo got big. ): He was the cutest puppeh, but now he is a huge smelly dog, I bet. He still would be so friggin' adorable. :3


So, like, I did dishes today. I hate doing dishes, but all our beverage holding containers are squeaky clean, thanks to yours truly. My spelling went to shit in this paragraph. Like, four words misspelled, five now. I misspelled misspelled. OHMYGAWD. I did it a second time. FuckMyLife


Anyway, my plans for Denny's flopped. Sadness.
Nothing else happened since Monday tho.
OH, except my terrible time at Open House. I was standing for two hours. Least I had somebody to text. It was breaking the rules, but I don't get a hoot. I was tired. Put of all of it, I realized the shop teachers at my school are pretty boss. Even though one is a Packers fan.


Time for venting. Whooooooo.
Kso, there is this SUPA skanky girl I know. Yeah, whatever right?
But no. This girl is a freshman and went to a private school. I went there with her. She is so totes selling herself short. I don't know if she is that tarty at school, but it's really gross. Yeah, most guys will be all over that shit, but it's putting a bad rep on the female races.
AND, to make it even worse, she uses the duck face more than she uses a photo editing software. Yeah, I said it. What now!? What really casued me to vent such a paragraph was her Facebook status. I quote, ''Every guy treats me like they don't give a fuck about me." Okay, she and her even skankier friend found cusing. Whatever, posers. And maybe is she wasn't so whorey looking in her photos, maybe they would treat her better. Leaving nothing to the imagination. >:| People these days.


Man, that made me seem like a hateful, jealous bitch.
Only the bitch part is true.


....The next song I listen to I will post it on this blog accompanying a video.
The lucky song is... Drum roll please....
I've Got Your Number by Passion Pit.

I couldn't find a video I liked, so I'll just post a random one. WHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA




On a completely different note, I'm tired of all my default pictures. I've decided I need to take new ones. bleh. That means work for me. :l


Well, I'm off to shower and more music listening.
Fair well, my dear.

No, I didn't die.

You know, I got this ukulele, but never learned how to play.
Only because I can't tune it by ear. I'm musically challenged, I swear
Ukulele turner needed.

Jumping Jebuz! Tomorrow is school!
Unaware of what the weather will be like, but I'm guessing cold. Bleck
Specially something I need. Cold weather when I'm all leaky faces.
To those you don't know, leaky face is a runny nose.

Long-ish weekend. I didn't do much tho.
Other than go to some races, a fire, and some laundry.
Some say that was a lot, but really, doing stuff only counts if it's fun.
To hell with sentences that make sense. I'm tired as hell. XD

To be honest, I'm doing this so it's like I'm on here often.
Hope that made some sense.... It probably didn't.
Eh, I don't make much sense most of the time anyway.

Go go go, Godzilla, zilla, zilllaaaaaaa
Ahhhhh, it got stuck in my head.
My nephew was singing it, and now, BAM there
Even though, it's a tits song, it's still a song in my head.

Hey, PSsssssstt. You. Yeah, youuuuu.
 Read the first letter of every sentence, please. (:
And remember, I loves you, whomever you are. <3

What's Been Going On

Fuck.
I like starting things out with the word fuck. It's one of my favorite words.
I tired to figure out where it came from via Bing search. I got some scary results that didn't  yield any answers. I use Bing because I don't like Google. Simple as that.

Now on to more important issues.
I saw a microwave that has a Chicken Nugget button. Like they have the popcorn button, but a motherfuckin' Chicken Nugget button. It was a microwave meant for me. <3

I hate today. It was okay. I just think I strongly dislike my nephew. That makes me sound like a terrible aunt, but I don't give a fuck. He is annoying and mean. I'm just tired of telling me he hates me and I'm so dumb. I don't need my self-esteem attacked every ten minutes. Fuck that shit.

Bold Letters. Woo


I think I like this purple. I think it adds a nice break from the regular black bleck. say Black Bleck out loud. It's like I'm speaking German or something of the sort.


So, what did I do yesterday? You must be itching to know since I didn't report yesterday. 
Well, after school, I sweated balls. Went home. Ate and watching Tv with my mummy. I read until four and slept until eleven. I did finish two books: Catching Fire and Kiss and Make Up. Both were amazing. 
Sarra Manning is one of my favorite authors, right next to Joyce Carol Oates. But anyway, Manning wrote Kiss and Make Up, and it's really good. But such a sappy book. But I connected to it too well. Now my soul is all achy. Fuck.
Catching Fire is pretty titacular too. I need to read the third one, NOW. But I have five other books to burn thru. 


Mmmm, But anyway. I'm dreading this Friday. My mum is leaving for ten days. Yeah, the normal teen would be rejoycing the thought of it, but I'm not. I'll have to walk to school and shit. Not that I don't like walking, but I just don't want to walk to school. I'll have to put new music on my mp3 player. And learn to wake up earlier. :\ 


I've been so meh today. Not to happy actually. I don't know why. Maybe if I get some good music pulsing thru me, I'll be okay. 


Speaking of music, I'm listening to this song that I have on my computer that I have never heard of before. Yeah, that happens, but this isn't even a common genre I would listen to. But it isn't that bad. I looked to see who it was by, but alas, I have no clue what it is because it is abbreviated. I HATE it when they abbreviate band names to hell. It takes a master mind to figure out what the hell the actual name is. I swear it's because people are too fucking lazy to write out a full name, heaven forbid. 


Boop, boop. boop. I took a break. I had gotten to angry. I went to Memebase. i'm okay now. I don't know what else to say. 
Except. this codeeeeeeee
R'n rm olev
Have fun decoding. ;)


I was derping on Memebase, and there was an ad asking if I wanted to meet Sarah. Psh, not thanks I'm the most awesome one ALIVE. 
That's where me being modest went out the window. :o

This is just awesome. :D

Lucky Number Three

Whooooo! 3 is my favorite number. Third post. I have a good feeling about this one. You, as a reader, will enjoy this. I will it.
What I learned today:
1) I hate kennings. Kennings are stupid. Time waster, Mind killer.
2) Rotc pants HATE me. I only had to try on like, 5 pairs today.
Now that I look back on it, it seems like that was yesterday, but it was really today.
3) I love matrices because they are so freakin' easy. I have no clue what they are for, but they are awesome. Like me.
4) Snowball is awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I rather go on about my day. School was chill, I guess. I had to listen to what my math teacher did before he was a teacher. I'm sorry, but I don't care if you went to Purdue for nuclear enginerring, and then went to teaching. I rather learn about math, you know, since it is a math class after all. After we spent 30 mins on that, there was a fire drill. There was an actual reason for why we had to go outside when it was balls hot. I guess there was something wrong in the basement. Oh well.

After that was lunch. Lunch is always fun. I love the people I sit with and all... except when they stick spoons in my face whilst they are covered in ranch. The spoon, not the person. You know when you are quite and tired after a class that most likely wasted you soul away? I'm like that everyday at lunch, but I still get mutiple people asking me what is wrong. Want to know what is really wrong?! You arsefacetartcunts keep attacking me with questions. glfdghnvhgjdbhdf. I was asked if I wanted to kill somebody, because I looked that unhappy. Maybe saying them wasn't the greatest response.

Nothing really happened until I got my uniform, and then went to Snowball.
The thing is, I love Snowball. Yeah, I know it's a silly name, but it's got a meaning. :o
Snowball is basically a drug and alcohol prevention club thing, but it is so much more to so many people. I missed the first hour, and I felt bad about it. It's like missing a family event. Because, Snowball is my family. I wish I discovered them earlier.
Today, we played a game, as usual, but this one was more serious. We played the Red Line game. Were you cross the line if you had a certain situtation applied to you. I was surprised to see how many people went over the line when they asked if they or anybody they knew had been gang raped. You hear about that kinda thing, but you never think it happens in your area, or even in your school. I'm not gunna lie, I almost cried. But it was an amazing experience. I got to see everybody on a deeper level, and I know that people are going thru the same thing as me.

After that, I went to my Grandma's house. My grandma is the most beast grandma EVER. Yeah, I don't care if you like your granny better, mine is the best. THEEE best. I like to call her the Champion Grandma. :3

I went home and ate soup. It was so delicious. but I got some in my hair. D:
I just spelled delicious very  wrongly. Thank god for spell check. Urrrrr.... what else happened today... OH! I learned I have a freakin' F in Psychics. Second week of school and I already dug myself a hole. and I have a C in history. My academic life is falling apart at the seems. At least my ROTC and Psychology grade will be a high A, cuz those classes are soo sophomoric, as my history teacher would say.

I think I have a three day weekend this week. FUCK YES!!!!! I'm tired of school already, oye. Shitttt, I think I ran out of things to talk about... l:

Me gusta your face. 

Well, this is where I REALLY don't know what to talk about. :/ I can just ramble on for a bit longer, but I'm sure that gets boring.  

Ohmygawd. My font is freakin' purple!!!

Purple drank color. I want some now. :o

Well, I think I shall depart on this adventure. 

Y'all hear from me again.

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